As my Friday night plans fall through, I find myself sitting on the couch while Anaya contently plays around the house. I’m a bit bummed that I’m not out enjoying the night with girlfriends but again it’s’ nice to just sit , relax, and watch TV. What do you know, Coyote Ugly, one of my all time favorite movies to watch is playing on cable. I’m not that bummed out anymore!
While watching and reciting line of the movie, I admire Violet Sanders or “Jersey” for knowing she overcomes her fears of stage fright. She’s great! She follows her feelings, does what she thinks is best, and in the end achieves her dreams. I’m sitting here admiring her because her path and story is what I want to achieve. No, I’m not going to go to New York and work as a dancing and singing ‘coyote’ at a bar but I am going to find ways to do what I want ; beauty, fashion. Like Violet, I just need to find the first step and go without an hesitation. She went against her father, left Jersey with little money, no job, and minimal music equipment. Step by step here people because I don’t even have the courage to tell my dad I want to do makeup and go to cosmetology school. Ugh, i know – frustrating. I took one small step into telling my ‘o so supporting’ mother but she instantly shot me down. My parents are so hung up on me going for nursing degree. Granted, it’s a much more fitting place to be for a career to support Anaya but geebers , I can’t even pass anatomy!
I’ve come to a conclusion that my stage fright comes from my parents and refuse to disappoint them. But I need to be happy too , right ? Can I please get Violet to mentor me in her ways. I need her ballsy attitude and tell people I am going to be what I want and not what they want. With watching the movie you’ll see that Violet has a cute support system in her boyfriend. Thank goodness that I have a few also! With my own supportive boyfriend and a few other family members that think I should put aside nursing to put first what I really want, one of my biggest supports is my auntie Kim! She tells me how it is, where I need to improve, and forget what people say. We’re both trying to achieve our passions and getting over insecurities together and I honestly wouldn’t have asked for anyone else to go through this journey with. Shout outs to you girl ! I Love you !
Violet’s stage fright includes her being afraid of singing in front of people. My stage fright includes not being comfortable as a makeup artist or hair stylist. Whenever Violet sings alone, she has fun and you can see the passion in her song writing. Whenever I do my own hair and makeup I actually feel pretty and I also have fun while in the whole getting dolled up process. Our problem is knowing we have potential in what we want but are stuck because we are afraid of not being accepted. Violet overcame that problem. Fingers crossed that I can too.
This blog had no intentions of being lengthy. It’s a lot easier to see someone afraid of doing something they want and overcoming it. It also gives a little motivation, regardless if it’s just a movie. I love beauty and feeling good about myself. I just want to share that feeling with other people. Makeup isn’t permanent, it shouldn’t be taken seriously. If something makes you feel prettier and confident about yourself why not wear it? Full beat face, just a dab of lipstick, or good eyebrow shading; depending on my mood, makeup makes me feel so much pulled together. A change in hair color or extension of lashes could change your whole look, but regardless of what you look like, it shouldn’t matter .. as long as your personality stays true and the same. Making people feel comfortable, open, and beautiful about themselves is really all I want to achieve while doing hair and makeup. I love looking at people comfortable being themselves, in their own style!